i love flying – it means i’m on my way to meet friends or see new places. or if i’m dead tired it usually means i’m getting closer to my lovely futon bed… however, pretty much every time i fly i experience a couple of minutes of pure angst… you see, for some reason a part of me is always sure that the plane i’m in will explode a couple of minutes after take off.
it’s a fact that most accidents occur during take off or landing, but statistics tell me that i’m safer in the plane than i was in the bus/car on the way to the airport. i usually only fly finnair which has the youngest fleet in europe and is one of the few companies never to have been involved in a big accident so i know i’ll get to wherever i’m going in one piece. the obvious question then is why do i feel sure of dying those few minutes after take off? well, i mostly blame hollywood. i have this inner picture from some movie where some people sit in the back of the plane and see the cockpit explode and the fire coming towards them. if the explosion comes while in the air or when hitting the ground i don’t know and i don’t care, but never the less, that’s the thing i wait for. every god damned time when the plane stops at the runway just before accelerating up and away… quite irritating i can tell you – only this year i have flown to paris, milan and brussels (twice) and back again of course.
but i guess we all have our fears – i’m glad to have such a small one that doesn’t really interfere with my daily life. i happily continue jet setting through europe, knowing that if i only survive those first couple of minutes in the air, i can get back to my book or crossword puzzle. and especially like on sunday, taking off in pouring rain, it never ceases to amaze me how beautiful the moment the plane pushes through the last layer of clouds and straightens out in the clear blue sky where the sun always shines is.
thinking of all this gives me another kind of angst… i don’t have any flights booked, no trips noted in my calendar.. and i tell you, that angst is worse than the fear of take off!