all quiet on the eastern front. or not? i’m just having a little well deserved break from being online all the time. something happened to me when i got out to my summer-house a couple of weeks ago. all these years when mum and dad lived here i liked coming here for a couple of days – just to do nada and then head back to town again. now all of a sudden i don’t have that urge anymore. i’m perfectly content staying here for weeks in a row in this old wooden house with its demanding soul. i’m dead tired after a long winter, but for some reason i’m not allowed to only sleep and relax like i used to do here. there are walls to paint (and while you’re at it – do the ceiling as well! the house demanded by pouring out a cup of sawdust all over me when i tried to wipe out a mosquito killed ages ago), lawns to mow and ants to kill (in 40 years never once did my mother see an ant upstairs. when i had declared that i’m too lazy to start project painting the master bedroom the ants invaded my bed [sic!] and as soon as i had moved all my things from my childhood bedroom to the bathroom wardrobe and started covering the floor in the master bedroom from paint stains the ants disappeared. i have not seen an ant since then.)
no, i haven’t gone cuckoo (not more than usual that is), i’ve just gone back to basics. you learn a lot from just listening. to the sounds of nature, to the creaks of the old house, to your own body. you wake up from the happy swallow chirps, you know it’s time for bed when the nightingale starts its lullaby. you eat when you’re hungry – not when the clock says it’s time for lunch. and when you have guests you know which stairs to jump over in order not to wake them all (since they still are in the only-here-for-a-night-or-two-to-relax-mode.)
this might not be the two weeks at the riviera i was hoping for this summer, but the house and i like each other. after years of illness and quietness i finally brought some life and energy into it again. besides, doing manual labour is therapeutic in its own way. i like it. you should try it sometimes!