I have been writing as long as I can remember. At the age of eleven I had a handful of pen pals from around the world, the most exciting one being Melissa from Australia. We wrote to each other for years, but sadly we lost touch in our mid-teens. (Maybe I can track her down one day; it would be fun to know what became of her.)
At some point, some odd years ago, a few people pointed out to me that if I were to write a blog, they’d read it. I didn’t really know what to write about, but seeing as I do love writing, I decided to give it a go. I think I had a handful of weekly readers.
Then my father got ill, and as writing has always been easier for me than talking, I started using the blog therapeutically. Suddenly I had a lot more readers. Getting tangled up in feelings and emotions, I don’t know if I wrote for myself or for an audience. I would like to think the former, but I cannot be sure of that.
It ended with me feeling quite sick and tired of it all. I felt like I had said too much, given too much of myself. People I hardly knew started talking to me like they knew me well. But the person they were addressing didn’t feel like me. I couldn’t recognise myself in the attributes they were giving me. I had been through a lot during a few intense years, and I needed to heal. For the first time in my life, I gave up writing.
A year later, I suddenly woke up with that old itch of wanting to write. So I pretty much picked up where I had left off. And from there it just seemed to escalate.
This blog is still mostly about me and my sometimes messed up life, but I have noticed it’s starting to have a life of its own. Where it will end, time will tell.
And oh, yes.. in case you are wondering about the name of the blog… well. It’s derived from the expression management by perkele, originally a Swedish expression for a Finnish leadership approach that takes required actions in a quick and swift way, instead of a prolonged pondering of all possible alternative approaches and points of view before actually getting anything done. People who have worked with me will know this is how I operate. Additionally, they will know that whilst there are male logic and female logic, there’s also a third version: chia logic…